Life With Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis: The Fear

Will I be able to accomplish my goals and reach my dreams?

The doubt, the fear – it lingers.

As positive as I like to keep my head-space – there is always that creeping thought that I will not be able to accomplish anything. My illness will win the fight. Or at least weaken me to the point that my dreams slip from my fingers.

I have this random white patch that is becoming more and more apparent as the weeks go by and I can’t help but think it might be early vitiligo. A lot of sources I’ve read pointed out a connection between vitiligo and thyroid disorders as well as autoimmune disorders. I really wonder what it is. I need to get it checked out before my anxiety kicks in.

Since Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis is an autoimmune disease – there is an even greater chance for me to get other autoimmune diseases. Autoimmune diseases such as Type 1 diabetes, Rheumatoid arthritis, lupus, and MS, to name a few.

While I don’t think about it a lot, it haunts me.

It’s taking me so long to adjust and wrap my head around just one, I don’t even know what I’d do if more were to come my way. I couldn’t even handle an all-nighter the other day. I ended up getting a fever, burning body aches that left me screaming in my sleep for my mother and an extra swollen thyroid.

But I want to be a doctor, I really do.

So, I’m going to suck it up, take care of myself and continue to march on.

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